User blog:Maccy1949/Four Freakin' Years

So this month I actually hit four years on this place.

Yaaaaaay.
I'm a bit late, but whatever. Thanks, y'all, for sticking with me through all the crap I give ya. I'm very happy to have met all of you in my lifetime, and I'm looking forwards to a few more years. After that, I don't know.

There's a possibility I might leave in a few years. I don't know when that is, but I, like most others, will leave here. My enthusiasm for writing my characters has gradually diminished, and I tend to look back on some of my old writing with absolute regret and, just, well, it sucked.

I can't write plastic biomechanical robots very well, but for some reason I can write humans just fine. Take from that what you will, but my point still stands; I'm getting bored. I don't even feel like rebooting the whole thing or making a new one.

A ramble or something
I'm going to finish my current storyline. I do want to do that, but after that, I don't think I'll be writing much. I haven't really made a new MOC in months, haven't really had any ideas for stories in a while. It's the same with my YouTube channel, my steam is dying because, well, I always have this doubt that no one else, even just one person, is going to like what I do. Yeah, yeah, I know, you're supposed to write for yourself and all that, but you at least need a bit of motivation from someone else.

I'm not trying to guilt trip any of you, I actually really don't like talking about things like this, that's why I rarely actually open up about my problems in depth. It's just the way I am, I guess. Maybe I need therapy or something.

Sorry about that whole ramble and all. Sometimes I need to let things out, my brain enjoys torturing me sometimes. I promise, I'm doing fine, I just lose myself a few times. Anyways, I will see you all again in about five months when I announce a new story, or, y'know, whenever I get the urge to actually do something here.

Peace out.