User blog:TheFallenAngel/I'm back, but there's still some trouble, PLEASE READ

After a week or so, I return to Custom Bionicles, but I'm still having issues.

I don't know when this started, but a month or so ago, I've been feeling as if...I've lost commitment to this. Long story short, I've been feeling uninterested in doing Bionicle anymore. I don't know why, but it's been destroying me. I've also been slacking off to write another story I'm doing that is NOT related to Bionicle or Lego or anything known at this time. This, tragically, is the true reason I've left this Wiki.

When I began with Angels of Death, I felt a thrill, a rush, an urge to keep on going. But for some reason, I've lost that rush. I don't feel that urge anymore. I don't want this. This can't happen to me.

I think this is why I'm seeing Bionicle-lovers die one by one. I've seen loved members and good friends leave before my eyes. I think it could be because there feel the same way I feel. I don't want to end up that way. I can't, I won't!!!

I don't give a friggin' crap if I don't feel like doing it anymore, I will do it anyway, God damn it!!! I can't just give up on this before it even begins. I want to do it, but I still feel the lack of impulse. Why do I feel this way? Is it because I'm almost a senior in high school? Is it because I procrastinated? Is it punishment for a sin I've commited? Or is it because of who I am? I can't leave this place because of that. I love Bionicle, I love Custom Bionicles, and I love you guys. I can't just surrender. I have to find a way to overcome this. But how?