User blog comment:ToaTusk/Ghosting/@comment-33037869-20160820210505

Inner circles are a fact of life in any community. That's not to say your concerns or feelings are any less valid, but in my years on the internet I've joined hundreds of communities and I can name the number on my hand I ever get anywhere close to anyone in the upper echelon.

Of course I felt underappreciated, but that is a fact of life. Established communities are built like earthen walls; unless you really push for every inch of space you possibly can in just the right way, you will never rise to any kind of important in them. Bear with me here, it isn't as hopeless as it sounds.

Find a new community, or hell, make your own. I've recently began planning a little Garry's Mod experiment with a group of friends and we're hoping it'll blossom into something big where I can be one of those guys who people go "wow, I wish they'd play with ''me!" ''It's not selfish to want to be at the centre of attention; it's human nature. What I would suggest is not to then fight a war over a community you were never fully accepted in, because I've done that too. Whether you think people are corrupt or not, if you're not in a position to have your views heard, you'll be considered another crazy in the ether and alienated even more from a community. Leave peacefully, take the friends you did make with you, and then move on.

I appreciate a catharsis like this can sometimes be soothing, but within a day here I've already made mistakes I'd rather leave behind, and I've been fortunate those involved are gracious to the point of saintliness and have granted me such forgiveness, but trying to cause war over something like this will achieve nothing.

"Only Nixon could go to China." I think that's a valuable saying to apply to this situation (assuming I've got it correct).

Good luck and farewell nevertheless.